big food racap.

here is a recap of food:
WEDNESDAY:
L: 6 oz. yogurt, 3.5 oz chicken, 2c cucumber, lemon juice, about 1c baked potatoes, 1 oz feta cheese.


S: 1 bag microwave popcorn (individual bag), 1/4c cottage cheese, butter and salt of popcorn

D: 1c cottage cheese (it was going bad i had to use it all), 1 oz feta cheese, about 1c baked potatoes, 2c celery, lemon juice, garlic (roasted in toaster oven)

THURSDAY:
B: 7:30: 1 english muffin, 6 oz yogurt, 1T PB, 1T butter, 1 Lg. Peach, 2 sm. Nectarines, 1 veg burger, cinnamon, 1 "moo magic" milk mix"

S: in the car on the way to the cabin. 10:45: 1c mixed (wild from picking the the woods) blueberries and blackberries, 1/4 c cottage cheese. i also licked the spoon from the cashew butter that i was packing for camping. ops.

L: at the cabin camraless. 1:30: 2 Quorn chicken cutlets, 6 oz greek yogurt, 2c mixed spinach and zucchini, 2 pitas, 1 oz feta, lemon juice.

S: 4:30: 1 oz feta cheese, 1 peach

D: 6:30: i ear corn with butter and salt, 2 veg burgers, 2c mixed cukeumber and spinach, 6 oz yogurt with lemon juice


FRIDAY: (a difficult food day, almost slipped a couple of times and jsut felt discontent) "I DON'T HAVE TO HURT ME ANYMORE!!!!"

B: 7:45: 1 pkg maple brn sugar oatmeal, 1 T cashew butter, 6 oz greek yogurt, 2 peaches, 1 moo magic milk mix

S: 11:20: 1 Quorn chicken cutlet with butter, 1/2 banana, 2 celery sticks with mustard (came very close to getting off track. something was pulling me to eat more. i did actually eat one cracker from in the cabin then stopped myself from going down a road i didn't want to be on!!!! thank God! it was scary though. i need to be careful.

L: in the car: 12:30: 2 slices bread, 2 T maple Almond butter, 1 Lg. Banana, 2 T jelly, about 1c celery, 6 oz greek yogurt, after that i felt a like munching i don't know if it was because i had just eaten a very hard food (PB and Banana sandwich) i haven't eaten one of these is years without binging. oh man. it was really yummy. but a little too yummy it really reminded me of binging. scary. i had a lot of tests this week. i don't know why i do this to myself. the ice cream was very emotional. and the sandwich was also. i'm really too tired to be messing with myself. but if you know my personality you would understand that i push myself and i am always looking for a challenge. i just don't want to give myself too much too soon and end up relapsing!!!
so afterward i had a package of the apple cinnamon cookies that i bought the other week. they are amazing. i need to get some more. they are a dessert, but they taste good, and they are good for you. and i am comfortable with them, which is really rare with dessert foods for me.

tonight for dinner (at 6:45) i had. 2 Quorn chicken cutlets, 1c Edamame (soy beans), 6 oz yogurt, 2c zucchini, butter, lemon juice, mrs dash, salt on the Edamame. their was really nothing to put the butter on besides the chicken. i really didn't need it and couldn't even taste it, but i needed 2 fats with this meal and thats all i could think of to go with it. also, i had a late snack so i wasn't terribly hungry for dinner. it felt a little like stuffing. funny, because it was my idea to go out for ice cream after dinner. i think i just wanted the challenge!!! haha silly kasondra. if only you knew me. i am always torturing myself and challenging myself. why can't i just give myself peace?

this is a picture of the ice cream that i got- after i already started eating it. i almost forgot to take the picture. there are 2 spoons because 1 was leftover from the sample of another flavor that i asked for. such a little bowl of mush causing so much discontent in my mind...

HAPPY 08.08.08 : )
i had to work again today (i felt blessed that my mom also had to work with me). for breakfast, at 7:00, i had 6 oz Trader Joe's low fat plain yogurt. 1c wheat bran, 2c blueberries, 1 Moo Magic Milk mix. cinnamon and stivia.

Snack was at 9:59 haha, i was pretty hungry 10:00 couldn't come fast enough! 1/2 c cottage cheese with wheat bran. carrots and zucchini.
i got out of work early today. my mom and i went to the mall because she had a free panty coupon at Victoria's Secret. we also went to my favorite store! they have a lot of free tea samples. so much fun!we are the lunches that we packed at the mall. i made 1/2 can tuna, 1/2 c black beans, about 1 oz-1.5oz black soy bean pasta, raw zucchini, carrot, spinach, soy sauce, 1 T parm. cheese
for my second snack i had a large bag of carrots, about 6 mushrooms, a large peach, 1/2 c cottage cheese with wheat bran. (sorry no picture)


next, i took Jack for a nice long walk!!! it felt sooo good to get out but he was really tired. i was practically dragging him, lol.
i went to my parents house for dinner tonight and to watch the Olympics!!!! i have been looking forward to this for so long! (this is my brother making his pizza) we made homemade pizza's.
i wanted to try something different. i used the dressing that i bought yesterday (champagne and pear from trader joes) and had a large salad. then i spread the dressing onto crust as my sauce and made a tuna, feta, mushroom, broccoli, onion pizza, and dipped it in more dressing!!!!!! it was absolutely delicious.


this is my salad


my pizza


dessert was a large bowl of blueberries and strawberries with about 1/2 c yogurt, cinnamon, and a cup of tea
I'm off to watch the Olympics now! i have a 10 mile running race in the AM. i will be WALKING since i haven't run all summer. lets see how far i make it.

I had dinner at my parents house (but we all kind of made our own thing than ate together). I made "sushi." I used 1 whole zuchini, 6 egg whites, 1c wheat bran, soy sauce, seaweed wraps, grape leaves. i cooked the mix in a frying pan then wrapped the mix in the seaweed and grape leaves. very very delicious!!! after dinner i had some ice cream (haven't had ice cream in forever-unless i was binging on it) i really wanted to just enjoy some in a "normal" reasonable quantity. (it didn't go quite how i had planned). i ended up eating most of the 1/2 gallon. I had Edy's Slow Churned chocolate chip - even though i don't like chocolate chips. i tried to pick around them. i ended up eating most of them anyways because it is impossible to pick around them. I don't know why i couldn't stop, i just kept going back for more. oh well i will use this as a learning experience. so for dessert i ate 90% of a half gallon Chocolate Chip ice cream. i can only improve for next time and not get down on myself in the process. : )
P.S. this isn't the ice cream that i ate - but i forgot to take a picture in my haste and compulsion.